200th post

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Well, then that was quick.

Just four months ago I posted my 100th post, and here we are now on post 200, my god I must talk a load of crap.

I honestly never thought I would get this far and I am truly humbled by the response that I have gotten from everyone on here. You are far too kind to a guy with a laptop trying to bash out a few stories and random thoughts.

This has really snuck up on me, and I wasn’t expecting to hit this anytime soon, so I haven’t had the opportunity to do anything special for this milestone except to say a massive thank you to everyone who has supported me, liked my posts and followed me.

I started this blog on the advice of a friend as a place to put my stories that I was writing, but it has become so much more than that.

I have met people on here that I consider being friends and more than that this has become a place where I can talk openly about anything and get support from kind people without the fear or ridicule and free from trolls.

I think I have spoken about this before, but I’m going to say it again.

When I started this blog, I was in a bad way. I was suffering from depression and high anxiety. I was in a job that I hated, I had no motivation in life, and I almost killed myself.

So I was in an awful place, I got help and support from loved ones, and now I am back to normal, I’m still nuts, but I’m back to normal.

Having this blog has helped me survive. It became a reprieve from my normal life a place where I can be myself, where I have no one to worry about, and I can concentrate on myself.

That is not a luxury I have ever afforded myself before. I always put other ahead of myself, it is something that is hardwired into me and has been from a very young age.

Now though I have this blog and it has helped me.

As I said, I never thought that anyone would care about anything that I had to say.

So again, from the bottom of my heart thank you.

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In other news, I posted on Wednesday that I have been offered a contribution based contract to get my book published. Today I received the contract and I am unfortunately not able to accept it.

They want me to pay £2500 to them to publish my book. I don’t have that kind of money, so I have to decline the offer.

I have a plan. Today I picked up a book that is this year’s list of agents and publishers for this year. I am going to go through it and start submitting it to them. I’m looking at it this way if one publisher thinks it’s good enough to publish them so will other.

I am slightly disappointed, but this has been such a massive confidence boost it’s unreal.

Now I know that my work is good enough to get published and that means more to me than I thought possible

I know it might not seem like much to a lot of people, but this has been my dream for years. Long before I started writing again. But I was always told I wasn’t good enough. Now I know differently.

Now I can say to all those people who thought I would never amount to anything I can say a big FUCK YOU.

You were wrong. I have talent, and I should never have wasted 16 years thinking otherwise.

So this has been my 200th post I want to say again a massive thank you to everyone who made this possible.

Here’s to the next 200

Cheers

Colin

via Daily Prompt: Reprieve

17 responses to “200th post

  1. Congratulations Colin, blogging has been an amazing journey for me also. It has taught me a lot of things about myself. I enjoyed your post, will read the other post to.

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  2. Wooooohoooo! 😁
    Congratulations on sticking with it and Im so glad that your going to move forward with the book. I’m sure there’s a perfect publishing fit out there for it. 👍😆

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    • Thanks Kira.
      I am going to be hitting the books and sending it off to lots of differnt agents and publishers. I have done some research on this mob I was in contact with and frankly they seem to be a bit of a scam. They are a vanity publisher. I am so not interested in that. £2500 is a ridiculous amount of money to ask for.
      But I will keep plugging away

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  3. Hey congrats on the 200th post and I have some catching up to do my friend. You know I’m a fan and will always be since I believed in you from the very beginning. I remember reading the first post from you and all I could think of was “Wow, this guy has so much talent”. You had little belief so yourself at the time, almost surprised that somebody could like your ramblings. And look at you now.
    That darn publisher just wasn’t the right deal and you will find the right one or it will find you. I’m super proud of you and I’m honored to call you my friend. Hugs

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