Well, then that was quick.
Just four months ago I posted my 100th post, and here we are now on post 200, my god I must talk a load of crap.
I honestly never thought I would get this far and I am truly humbled by the response that I have gotten from everyone on here. You are far too kind to a guy with a laptop trying to bash out a few stories and random thoughts.
This has really snuck up on me, and I wasn’t expecting to hit this anytime soon, so I haven’t had the opportunity to do anything special for this milestone except to say a massive thank you to everyone who has supported me, liked my posts and followed me.
I started this blog on the advice of a friend as a place to put my stories that I was writing, but it has become so much more than that.
I have met people on here that I consider being friends and more than that this has become a place where I can talk openly about anything and get support from kind people without the fear or ridicule and free from trolls.
I think I have spoken about this before, but I’m going to say it again.
When I started this blog, I was in a bad way. I was suffering from depression and high anxiety. I was in a job that I hated, I had no motivation in life, and I almost killed myself.
So I was in an awful place, I got help and support from loved ones, and now I am back to normal, I’m still nuts, but I’m back to normal.
That is not a luxury I have ever afforded myself before. I always put other ahead of myself, it is something that is hardwired into me and has been from a very young age.
Now though I have this blog and it has helped me.
As I said, I never thought that anyone would care about anything that I had to say.
So again, from the bottom of my heart thank you.
In other news, I posted on Wednesday that I have been offered a contribution based contract to get my book published. Today I received the contract and I am unfortunately not able to accept it.
They want me to pay £2500 to them to publish my book. I don’t have that kind of money, so I have to decline the offer.
I have a plan. Today I picked up a book that is this year’s list of agents and publishers for this year. I am going to go through it and start submitting it to them. I’m looking at it this way if one publisher thinks it’s good enough to publish them so will other.
I am slightly disappointed, but this has been such a massive confidence boost it’s unreal.
Now I know that my work is good enough to get published and that means more to me than I thought possible
I know it might not seem like much to a lot of people, but this has been my dream for years. Long before I started writing again. But I was always told I wasn’t good enough. Now I know differently.
Now I can say to all those people who thought I would never amount to anything I can say a big FUCK YOU.
You were wrong. I have talent, and I should never have wasted 16 years thinking otherwise.
So this has been my 200th post I want to say again a massive thank you to everyone who made this possible.
Here’s to the next 200