My Daughter hates me

I feel so completely useless, and I think my daughter hates me.

Over the last few days she hasn’t been feeling well, took her to the doctors yesterday, and she has a viral stomach bug, because she is only five weeks old, they can’t give her anything. Due to this, she hasn’t been keeping anything down, and last night she wouldn’t go to sleep unless either the wife or I was holding her.

Tonight I came home from work, and I sent the wife to bed because she hasn’t slept more than an hour last night and I’ve been taking care of my daughter.

She hasn’t settled down in the last three hours, always crying. I changed her, rocked her, spoke to her, gave her, her dummy and tried to feed her.

She won’t settle, she won’t take any of her bottle, she won’t take her dummy, she won’t sit still, and she won’t stop crying.

I feel so utterly useless. I sat here with her on my knee looking straight at her practically begging for her to tell me what she wants. I’m at my wit’s end because I don’t know what to do.

My wife comes though takes her, she takes the bottle from her, and within ten minutes she’s out cold, sleeping.

I feel so completely useless and like my daughter, who I love more than anything on this earth, hates me.

I don’t know what to do, and it has wrecked utter devastation on my heart, mind and soul.

My daughter hates me.

I don’t know if I can handle that.

I don’t know what to do.

 

via Daily Prompt: Devastation

19 thoughts on “My Daughter hates me

  1. She in no way hates you. But when they’re sick, they all want their Mommies. It’s natural. They are genetically programmed to know that the person who takes care of them the most is the person they should be with when they’re sick. It’s super hard to not take it personally but I assure you, she loves you. My husband felt the same way.

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  2. Yeah, it makes my gut clench to hear a new baby cry. Their cry changes around 10 mo and it gets so much easier to take. I’m sorry she’s sick. It sucks so much when they don’t feel good and there’s nothing to do.

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            1. Just for later reference, you would have to mess up royally over and over and over for them to hate you. And even then it wouldn’t be past an “I’m sorry”
              With your personality and how much you obviously love your daughter, I don’t think you ever need to worry about that.

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      1. Ah well, she’s a little too young to understand melodrama then. Still, when she reads back over your blog at the age of 13, she’ll be suitably embarrassed. 😉
        Forgive my humour – it’s a coping mechanism, but still – you are neither useless nor does she hate you. It’s all good, Colin – I promise. 🙂

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